“Saan ka papasok ng OJT pre? Ayos ba diyan sa OJT mo? Haha” Those were the everyday messages in my Facebook account before I started my internship. It was already June 8, which is the official start date for internship when I found the company I will work at. I never looked for a company that will accept me as an intern. But God gave me that opportunity to me to work at Potatocodes.
I’m not really good technically in terms of programming and coding – all of my friends know that. Honestly I don’t even like it. It makes me puke every time I see someone coding. Seeing my co-interns coding makes it even worse. I have no idea what they are doing, when there is a task, I always ask them until I produce something. It was so hard and I could not imagine doing it every day for the rest of my life. I’m like Kokey here on Earth. At a different dimension that I will never understand.
Days have passed. Tasks keep filling up, like raindrops pouring over me. I did not know that those raindrops were actually blessings from the sky.
“The Lord will fight for you, you need to be still.” Exodus 14:14
Those tasks led me to question myself and ask God for answers.
Every morning I would go to office early. Work starts at 8am, and I would be there around 6:30am (naks, earlybird). As I would wait for my co-interns and leader, I would read a lot books about life, passion, purpose. I always asked myself ”Ano bang gusto kong gawin ko sa buhay ko?” These books helped me find signs about what would I like to do with my future.
One day, my mentor asked me “Nageenjoy ka ba sa ginagawa mo?” I told him “Di po masyado, para po kasing iba ung gusto kong gawin sa buhay”. After that conversation, he supported me as an individual and he put me in a place where I would find what I wanted and would be able to grow professionally. I tried different things- from coding to management and marketing, and even writing articles here at Ideastalk.
I realized that in order for us to know what we really like we must try different things. Sometimes God will give us duties that we don’t like, and for a while we’re down and anxious but as he says in 1 Peter 5:7 “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” God will never leave us. He is always there to guide us.
Slowly, I started to enjoy my internship. Day after day, I started to feel the rush of excitement as I faced new challenges.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8-9
At first I thought I was the worst one on our team. The one who wouldn’t have a good future. The one who will never succeed. But I was wrong. All of us have our own talents, passions, and own destiny. For God’s ways are better than our ways. His plan for us is better than our plan. And now, I’m starting to find the joy that I really want for me to continue my career.
Life gives us options. Do you want to be satisfied? Or do you want a life of regrets? It is up to us. If we choose to be satisfied, then we should do what we love to do. This will set us on the path to succeed. If you like a life of full of regrets (I guess no one will choose this) then do those things that you don’t like and it will kill you slowly. Benjamin Franklin once said,
“Some people die at 25 and aren’t buried until 75”.
Being happy is a choice. Honor God in everything that you do, and success will find its way.